so i just fancified the blog and now feel immense pressure to post something. but no ideas. i'm a little exhausted frankly, from channeling all my creativity into setting up this beautiful space. aaah, isn't it nice?

so, let's see. what's left in there. "dink, dink, dink. halLOW!" i know - i'll take the easy route and share a video i created recently. i'm pretty much in the bullshit stages of making film. quite the amateur. but having a wholelotta rad times with it. in fact, it's been over a month now that i've been interning with a video production company and i must say that i'm learning so much and loving every moment of it. unfortunately, i'm at what i call "the awkward teen stage." at first i was delighted by any little accomplishment or catching-on that was happening but now i'm over that and just want to have a fine-tuned, functional knowledge of the entire process. so, i guess my awkward teen analogy did not quite explain itself so i'll elaborate. you know how you're 15 or something and you're all roughed up and ugly, a little greasy and physically awkward? perhaps you have braces on your teeth and you haven't figured out how to pluck your eyebrows yet and you might have a big white zit on your forehead that everyone's been staring at all day? but you want to be taken seriously so bad. you're blowing off your parents, you want to be independent and you're full of angst, just trying to grow up faster than you should. so that's me right now. i'm bobbling around the studio, getting a taste of what can someday be that i want so badly right now, but then i ask the owners, "which button turns off the mac?" yes, awkward. learning sucks sometimes. and i feel so bad for the guys over there. they're extremely patient and kind. i hope this leads to ginormous karma payoffs for them someday.

i know that my expectations of myself are a bit unrealistic being that, yes, i learned how to turn a mac on a mere 5 weeks ago. so i'm being hard on myself. but i hate being a burden. i want to be helpful and i want to move on. ugh! i want a fast-forward button.

so, back to my amateur video efforts. here's one for your viewing pleasure. there's no camera or sound work to speak of - just experimental editing and fun. enjoy!

Now that I've begun my brand-spanking new video production internship, I decided to go home and try my hand at creating my first film project. Just a little something to practice some of what I've learned without dicking up a "real" project at the studio. And I figured I should familiarize myself with Microsoft Movie Maker, which came installed on the cheapy computer we recently bought. It's kind of silly that someone with a professed interest in film-making would not have started by putzing around with the computer and program one has already. Ah well.

At the production studio, of course they have Macs and video-making software costing thousands of dollars. As stated, our home laptop is incredibly cheap and basic. When it was purchased, its intended use was for creating documents and cruising the Internet. Simple things that require little in the way of advanced technology.

In the end, Microsoft Movie Maker is a very dumbed-down program which actually limits creativity. And, of course, the built-in webcam would not be my first choice in camera and sound equipment. For the level of skill I'm at right now, it's just fine. But I'm sure the day will come when I'll decide that I've had it with the stupid program. And then I'll have to sell an organ so I can buy a Mac and a better program.

So, with Mike's participation, I created this little ditty. Tre classy.

Oh, I should type up a little description or something. How funny. Like a parody of a film review. From like, an art publication. Okay...

In Jess Haven's debut film, we see her intrinsic experimental side. She combats her curious relationship with the webcam and its functions against deeply emotional exchanges with her muse, her lover, her husband Michael. The interactions between the mates are poignant exchanges of humor, exploration, trust and oneness. The surprise ending is delectably irrelevant - no doubt Haven's commentary on the constructs of logic. As one delighted viewer expressed, "Bravo Havens. Bravo!"

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